Valentine's Day Blues...

*SIGH*

And V-Day approaches.

I have nothing against said holiday, however, my emotions always decide to go haywire around this time of year.

It's quite annoying.

My desire to meet the man I will marry, to have meaningful relationship at least headed towards marriage, always seems to grow bigger during the V-Day season.

I even start just wishing I could have a date for the day, which I don't normally think when I am in my normal, non-V-Day state of mind.

*sigh*

I also sigh a lot. It's depressing.

My only hope is to cling to Jesus. Normally it's just me and Him, and he reminds me that He is my first love, that He loves me way more than any earthly man can. He reminds me of His plan for me, that my time will come to be married, in His perfect timing.

He reminds me that my deepest satisfaction is found in him. That the truest intimacy is found in His arms alone; that I won't be truly joyful, or at peace unless I am focused on Him first and foremost.

If only I could remember that more in the day to day.

Forgive me Lord for not keeping my focus on You at all times. Teach me more and more what it means to be wholly devoted to you, finding my complete satisfaction in you, all day, every day. Amen.

~Marieke