Forgiving Dad

The subject of forgiveness came up in a conversation I had a little while ago and I realized that I am still working on forgiving my dad, whether I know it or not. I have gone through the forgiveness process before, but it's come up again. And I doubt it's a coincidence considering the upcoming event involving giving my dad some news he won't enjoy.

Sometimes I wonder if I will ever really fully forgive, or whether a part of me will always be upset. And where exactly is that line between forgiving and letting someone walk over you? Is it even a Biblical, Godly line if it's there? I don't believe God wants us to allow people to walk all over us, though, but you get my point (hopefully).

The current situation sucks, with work and all, though it's not altogether bad. I think I learned a lot through working here that I will use in life. But there have been some pretty negative aspects. I feel that I was manipulated and guilt-tripped into working here, now that I look back, even though there was a legitimate need at the time.

But I do not want to be holding bitterness and unforgiveness towards my dad. I hope that once the strain of me leaving here is over that our relationship will be a bit better in the long run. More father/daughter, than this wierd melding of father-boss/daughter-employee.

At any rate, I can see why God might be wanting me to deal with this now. My dad has a stressful thing coming up this weekend, and he will need grace. I need to give that to him, along with forgiveness. And hopefully, when the right time comes, we will both be ready for giving and receiving my news.