So much happening...

...that I just don't have the time to write about it all. Especially when I have multiple blogs.

I am still waiting on God's timing to talk to my dad. I am hoping it's soon, but in the meantime, I feel like God is working in me, getting me ready to talk to my dad with the right attitude. Last week, I was kinda mentally "checking out" cause I am just itching to move on. Then, God just kicked my butt through my pastor's sermon on Saturday. It was like he was telling me directly "You need to fix your attitude! You are working for ME, not your earthly dad, so get your act together."

Ok, Ok, I got it God....

So, this week has been much better so far, though also a bit more hectic (I've noticed that I seem to get more phone calls and interruptions precisely when I am trying to focus and get things done).

On another note, I have noticed that at certain times of the month, I feel like I'm almost bi-polar or something. I'll feel either really depressed, or really giddy. For instance, Friday, I felt like absolute crap about myself, and felt all depressed and cried myself to sleep. Compare that to last night, when I was practically hysterical with laughter. I was all giddy the whole evening. But even though I know this about myself, it is just a part of who I am and I can accept that. It's kinda fun, cause when I am really giddy around others, it makes them happier too (cause they laugh at my uncontrollable laughter and silliness).

It's an awesome thing to accept yourself, including your warts, and realize that God loves you as you are, made you who you are, and has a plan specifically for you, using your particular personality and characteristics to speak into other people's lives, be it encouragement, exhortation, or whatever. It's great.