First day

Today is the first day of our week of fasting and praying. I guess I didn't quite realize how intertwined my life has become with Nathan's, because I already miss him more than I thought I would.

I met with Sarah for small group, since the other girls are out of town or unavailable, and it was really good. I honestly don't think that at this point, with all the confirmations I've already gotten about my relationship with Nathan, that God's gonna all of a sudden say "Nope, sorry, he's not the one". However, I want to be open to hearing anything God has to say, so over this week, I am gonna do my best to surrender everything to Him. Afterall, He knows what's best for me. I have relied on God to lead me in this relationship more than anything in my entire life, and God has been faithful to bless our relationship. Sarah confirmed this when I was talking with her. She said that it sounds like God is probably going to speak to us more about other aspects of our relationship -- how He will use us, His timing and guidance in different areas, etc. And I believe that's more how God is going to speak to us also.

One thing that is weighing heavily on my mind is this next school year. God may totally provide a way for me to go to school without having to worry so much about how I'm gonna survive without going into more debt, but I am thinking of possibly taking some time off again so I can pay off debt before going back. I don't want to get screwed later on because I have all this debt from going to school with no financial aid. Plus, what I want to do doesn't require a degree, necessarily, even though I do still really want to get my degree, even if it's later on.

Plus, if Nathan and I get married next year, I don't want to start off with a huge amount of debt. I may be able to just take a few GE classes that I can take in the evenings to still keep at it, though I'd have to give up my music major classes in order to do that. I'd just be a very busy woman!

So I'm gonna be praying a lot about that this week as well to see what God says about that.

Please keep Nathan and I in your prayers this week! Thanks!

~M