So blessed...

Last night, Nathan and I had a really good talk outside when I was leaving, so we had one of our 1/2 hour (maybe even an hour!) goodbyes!

We were talking about some issues I've been having with my dad and some other issues. Nathan then told me that one thing that would bother him is that when he would confront me about things, I'd turn the blame back to him (and he admitted I was always right!), but that I wouldn't apologize for my own part. And he said that I've changed lately and that I apologize and take responsibility for whatever it is that I've done. He told me that he is so proud of me! It meant so much to me that he said that.

Because of the way I grew up, I have a habit of getting VERY defensive whenever someone confronts me about something, because even if it's done lovingly, it feels like an attack to me and I react aggressively. But Nathan is such a patient, loving and gentle person that I realize my mistake because he never "attacks" me. And if he does, he realizes his mistake and apologizes. I feel much more safe with him than any other person, because we can talk about the issues that bother and affect us without any resentment or hurt feelings once we talk things out.

Nathan has really affected me in a positive way, MUCH more than anyone else in my life. Just by being who he is, he has helped me overcome a lot of traits that I've picked up from my family, especially my dad. I'm not as defensive a person anymore. I can even see the effects in my other relationships. I've become more more conscientious and I've become more calm when people do hurt me.

Last night, as I was safely tucked in the crook of Nathan's arms, hugging and talking outside my car, I just felt so blessed that I nearly started crying (and that's not very usual for me!). And to think it will keep getting better and we'll keep growing closer!

I don't know what I'd do without Nathan in my life!