Fears...

God has helped me overcome a lot of fears that have come up, but every once in a while, I get a little too...ahem..."concerned" about certain aspects of the future.

Nathan and I will be taking the proper precautions, but since we're not going to be using the Pill (for various reasons), it scares me a little to think of the possibility of getting pregnant right away by some act of God.

I wonder "How will we manage? What if I get really sick during pregnancy, like my mom? What if Nathan can't finish school, or we don't even move to LA? What if I can't work and we need the money?"

Or I worry about our finances, especially since I'll be the primary breadwinner while Nathan goes through the program at LA Recording School..."Will I find a good enough job? Will we find a decently priced apartment? Will we have enough money with only one income?"

It scares the crap out of me sometimes, but I just remind myself that God is in control and that HE will provide for all our needs. We may have to make sacrifices, at least short-term, but He will take care of what we truly need. When I truly give it all up to Him, He gives me peace. I have seen Him provide before, so why would He suddenly stop providing now?

I have a few little "Godly Truths" on a sheet of paper that I put up at work and at home. They are basically Bible verses in my own words..... I need to remind myself of this one...

God cares about me and what goes on in my life. I can trust Him to provide what I need, protect me, and do what is best for me.