Not just a project post
I'm worried about getting gifts done on time for the Holidays. This does not make crocheting and knitting more fun.
Yesterday, this was the state of the baby blanket when I left for the shower:
The mother-to-be will be getting it later! It won't take too much longer to finish, but I was pretty bummed I didn't get it done in time. Actually, I kinda got depressed. I was working so hard to get it done in time, that I stopped having fun with it. Then I just kept spiraling downward about everything else....I was wearing the same shirt I wore to church the night before (most of the gals at the party were from church), and wasn't wearing any makeup since I ran out of time to get ready. I didn't feel put together at all, I didn't have the gift, and it even got to the point where I was bumming out about finances, about our future plans, about kids, etc. At the shower, I had a hard time keeping myself together by the end after holding a couple of the church babies. I nearly started crying. Then my pastor's wife asked me about my request for a raise from my dad, and that brought up some frustration from that whole situation. Once I got to my car, I did start crying.
I realized on the drive back to town (from Buellton), that I could allow myself to "grieve" the loss or delay of certain dreams...and to cry over the frustration of not even being close to where I want to be, or know I will be someday. To be sad that I can't even buy cute clothes that fit me well. To be frustrated with how I look and how hard it is to lose weight.
But that while I can allow myself a "moment", I need to remember that I am SO incredibly blessed. I have a wonderful husband who loves me dearly. I have family and friends who will help me when I need it. I have a church family that supports Nathan and I as individuals and in our marriage, and most importantly, that we have a loving God who is taking care of our needs and I know that He will give us the blessings we desire at the perfect time for us. He knows our frustrations and sadness and He is there blessing us along the way if we (if *I*) just look for them.
Even in the 3 months we've been married, God has provided for us right when we needed it, even if it was a bit scary in the moment.
Anyway, to get back to yarn stuff....
Here is a detail pic of the blanket. I am joining the squares using a whip stitch in the contrasting color. I may add some detail in the corners or something, because it's not as *clean* as I'd like it. I was going to use The Crochet Dude's "Dudessembly" method, but it would have taken too long (thanks to Chaun for the Dude's website!).
And, as if I needed another project, Nathan decided that he liked my scarf (Chenille Thick & Quick)....
...so I'm making him a green one that's a little wider:
Even though I don't generally like chenille since it's a bit...erm...tacky, I LOVE it as a skinny scarf. It's so fast to work up and it's perfect for Santa Barbara winters. It's actually the first scarf I ever crocheted for myself and it's definitely my favorite.
In case you want to make one, it's very easy and only requires one skein of bulky (I used Lion Brand Chenille Thick & Quick):
Ch 4 (5 for wider)
Ch 3, dc in 4th chain, dc in each chain
Ch 3, dc in each chain
repeat to desired length and tie in ends.
That's it!
I think this post is long enough now.
4 comments:
Oh how we learn through the patience of God teaching us lessons in life. You are so right about it being a 'grief' you are feeling for the loss of dreams you would have liked to accomplish by now. We deal with hundreds, if not thousands, of those 'deaths' in our lives that we must deal with. It does us no good to pretend that it's all good and go about life as if we did not suffer a loss.
On the topic of chenille, I hate it. ;o) I have officially refused to work with the thick & quick. I have 7 balls of it that Michaels discontinued & now I am stuck with. lame.
Chin up girl, you have the right outlook on Life!
Thanks Chaun!
Honestly, the only reason I even like chenille is for these scarves. Thats it! I cannot think of any other type of project that I would use it for that wouldn't be incredibly cheesy (and perhaps my scarves are cheesy too, but I don't really care cause it's soft and doesn't make me itchy).
I know that not finishing the blanket was just the catalyst for your post, but I want to talk about it anyway. :) The recipient will be so much more thankful for your gift because you took the time to handmake it. In today's society, we are so disposable. To actually have something that someone took time out of their busy life to make...it's such a wonderful, warm feeling. You did work very hard on that blanket. And you are doing a wonderful job! You and Chaun are both right, we experience griefs in ways we never thought. Whether it be a friend moving away, a dream that's been put on hold, all the way up to death, it's all a grief. I am glad you took that time for yourself. :)
Whipstitching has saved me more than once! Joining with sc is pretty fast too! The blanket is looking great. =)
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