At the moment, I am very unhappy at my job. It's hard working for my dad sometimes. Thank goodness I don't live at home anymore, otherwise, that would be horrendous.

I am debating whether to do something different for a while, rather than continue working here while I go to school. I am planning on taking over the agency, but honestly, I am having second thoughts right now. I wonder if I am really cut out for it. I'm thinking maybe taking a job in a different field, and NOT working for my dad, might be a good thing. That way I can get a feel for whether I really do want to eventually take over the agency.

/sigh....I don't know what to do. Maybe just going to Africa this summer will make a difference. Maybe I'll go for a whole year. I am feeling very drawn to go back.

I kinda feel like my life is in shambles at the moment. I am just unorganized in all these areas and it's not good. I just feel like I desperately need to do something different, but myabe I really just need to reprioritize or something.

All I know is that right now, I wish I were somewhere other than sitting at my desk, hating the work I do and all the backlog of paperwork surrounding me. God, I hate this.

I think tonight when I go home, I am going to pull a trashcan and boxes into my room and start either throwing things away, or packing them to sell or give away. At least then my room will be in more order. I take my aggression out on the disaster area that is my room.

Ok, well, so much for the short post I was planning on writing.........and now, back to work. Ugh.

The (Burned Out & Overwhelmed) Marieke