Two Days in a Row!

Well, since today is labor day, things are quite slow here at work. I've pretty much been chilling out. I came more prepared today with my latest issue of Relevant Magazine to read in addition to surfing the net. In the 6 hours I've been here so far, I've only taken 19 calls. Heh.

Well, the talk with my parents last night was good and bad. There is a slight chance that my parents may decide to fill out the FAFSA, and that is if they call a financial aid counselor and they explain things fully to my parents. That is IF they call a financial aid counselor. But things got cleared up surrounding my leaving the office and the change with me out of the house. I think my parents are in a "parental crisis" over the fact that their oldest daughter is nearly 21 years old. My mom mentioned that it's particularly hard to reconcile, considering the fact that she still has a child who is completely dependent (my 8 year old bro).

I was glad to have the air cleared on everything, and I feel like things are fine between my parents and me now, but in a way they were giving me conflicting statements--1. We love you and would do anything for you if you need us to & 2. We understand your want your independence, so we're not going to fill out the FAFSA cause you can handle it on your own.

This is just frustrating because the FAFSA really has nothing to do with being independent or dependent, the government just requires it in order to qualify for any government financial aid, loans', or work-study at government schools. My school can't do anything for me at this point without having a FAFSA on file. I can't even get a student loan at this point, according to the two counselors I have spoken with. So unless God miraculously provides a good chunk of change (or a really good new job), I will end up with credit card debt.

As far as job situations go, I am looking into getting a different job that is more rewarding (in more ways than just finances). I stopped at the local Christian college to see what jobs they have available, and found a few good leads. I am hoping I can do some kind of nanny/personal assistant/etc type job. Preferably more emphasis on nannying. So tomorrow I'll be calling a few people and seeing which positions are still open, etc.

All in all, I know that God will provide, I just tend to forget that sometimes. I mean, looking over the past year, God has totally provided for me in a lot of unexpected ways.

~M